#my jobs have bothered to pay on time lol 馃檭馃檭
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The eternal struggle between my hiking shoes chafing specific spots but my work shoes making me generally sore af...
#tbf my hiking shoes would prob be fine if i had halfway decent socks and also my work shoes could prob handle the walk to campus#if i got halfway decent insoles#but good socks cost money and this brand/model of work shoe seems to blow out *much* faster with aftermarket insoles for some reason :/#like if i swap them the sole rips off after like 4 months whereas current pair i haven't changed and while i might as well be#walking right on the damn pavement the insoles have compressed so thin the shoes themselves at least stayed intact for like 8 months#vimes boot theory at literal work i guess but yeah such is life when I'm actively on my last grace day for rent bc literally neither of#my jobs have bothered to pay on time lol 馃檭馃檭#anyway
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#how is it that i can get only like 6hrs of sleep. go for an hr run up a mountain and still b wired#like ??? make it make sense??? im not even a lil tired. im considering going up thr mountain again#how does my body do this? im not even euphoric. i just habe too much energy#i just wanna smash things with a baseball bat. its so weird. i guess its not really an issue. i just dont understand it which bothers me#its either a mood thing or the hyper disorder :-/ but like idk how i havent noticed it before#like have i always been like that? i have evidence going back to 2019 but i didnt actually notice it until the last year for real#...i guess there is maybe a reason i didnt have so much energy before this but ya kno#whatever. i can try to find a therapist in like 10 days or something. so ill try to figure it out lol#idk im just vibing bc im sorta unemployed rn. i mean ive been hired as a TA but dont meet for that until thurs but im not at my research#assistant job anymore as of Friday. so i can do whatever tf i want. except im still working on my data 馃檭 bc im fucked up like that#hopefully the energy lasts. or maybe not bc idk how i would fucking sit in an office at a desk like this#jesus. im like: me having adhd is impossible. but also me: having to do 3 things at once to pay attention and fucking dancing while i liste#bc i cant sit still. listen. i wont believe it until someone diagnoses me. but it wouldn't not make sense#ugh. i wanna run up the mountain again. but last time i was running twice a day to get rid of energy i fucked up my leg and its still#fucked up. but like not enough thst it hurts to walk so i still run on it. maybe ill go see a doctor once my new insurance kicks in lmao#oh Jesus my brain. maybe im just happy to havr all my insurance bullshit cleared up. i guess thats a bonus to living in like libertari4n#land. less regulations than my last state in terms of car insurance lmao#or maybe im nervous abt thr start of the semester. its gonna b a fucking wild ride lol#unrelated
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give up before you suffocate (literally) 鉁岋笍
tried to get a doctor's/nurse's apppointment for my throat because it's been aching since Sunday and I haven't been able to speak properly since Wednesday and I can't sleep at night because the pain is unbearable and NOTHING HELPS but the nurse I was talking with online said 'nah just try this painkiller mix and some disinfective tablets and warm honey water' (okay fair enough I haven't tried that) but I don't have those exact painkillers at home and the tablets I've been using haven't done shit so I'd have to go to pharmacy but I'm scared because when I tried to do that earlier today I ended up having to turning back home (the pharmacy is like 50 m from where I live) because I got a terrible coughing fit that brought tears to my eyes and sometimes these coughing fits even alert my gag reflex which kind sucks you know because it's as if I'm about to throw up but nothing actually comes out 馃拃 but I also can't order the stuff from the online pharmacy that offers consulting online because I've already ordered from them yesterday and today (when my trip to the pharmacy failed) and I'm just too embarrassed to order from them AGAIN?? 馃槶馃檲 (yes this is a problem shut up)
so yeah, when BC said give up before you suffocate I took that personally because lol everytime I try to speak (just to see if I'm able to yet), every other syllable is just wheezing while every other syllable is completely soundless, and I can only speak until I either run out of breath or get a coughing fit, so even if I made it to the pharmacy alive, I'd have to either write down what I need or idk fucking pantomime it I guess 馃槕 the throat situation is even worse because during the day it doesn't bother me that much because I don't pay attention to it (I can feel the most pain when I swallow) so I THINK it's getting better, but then the night comes and I go to bed and have too much time to focus on the way and how often I swallow and how much more it hurts every time and 馃槱馃槱馃槱馃槱馃槱
at least I don't have fever anymore and my leggies haven't been achy since Wednesday, but I've got a runny nose, which is honestly the LEAST of my worries right now, although my right ear being completely blocked because of it is a bit of a bummer (btw is it normal to hear your own pulse in your ear? been too scared to google this ahaha if it's something serious pls don't tell me I want to go swiftly)
welp, since I can't do anything useful like prepare for my upcoming new job (馃檭) or write my fic (馃槶), I'm gonna project the remains of my sanity on rant posts like this I guess lol I hope you enjoyed I'm off to die on my way to the pharmacy now 馃拝
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If you are complaining that a celebrity is actually deceiving the public for money, you must not understand the concept of celebrity in the first place. That's literally the job. That's literally what being a public figure IS. All celebrities mispresent themselves, that's what a celebrity IS. Leonardo Dicaprico isn't going to go on Fallon and talk about his explosive diarrhea he had last night. LOL. No, he's gonna talk about the fun glamourous shit he does. I have some bad news for you about every single politician that has ever existed. If Harry seems fake to you and you can see the truth and it bothers you that much, just ignore him lol you (or anybody) dont the right to make him act in any other way that he acts now. Free will is real. I see the deception sometimes, but it doesn't bother me too much anymore. This man isn't giving out politican and Lance Armstrong levels of deception out here. Who cares? He is only fooling the willing.
Thanks, I think I'm familiar with the concept of celebrity!!!
The thing is, Harry hasn't reached the stage of being famous just for being Harry Styles. He's supposed to be a singer first and foremost, and now a ~serious~ actor. So it's realistic to expect him to be able to talk about his craft, without just saying "the cover is pink because I love pink" and "WS has a nice rythm" and let everyone else from Kid Harpoon to Rob Stinger tell us why Harry is the next "rockstar" of the decade. Can't he tell us himself why we should be paying attention to him? Or is it because he isn't bothered because it doesn't matter what makes him famous as long as it does? And with machine behind him is pushing him, he knows it's just a matter of time?
But I'm not worried, soon he's gonna be the male Kim Kardashian, from the Calm app to the Manchester arena to the cosmetics line, from the Gucci cringe ads to the movies he worked so hard to get cast in (pun intended). He'll be famous for being famous. Maybe then he can do whatever the hell he wants like have an affair with a woman who's in a relationship and also his boss and breaking up families and...oups. Oh no, what will he do then???
As you said, he'll be fooling the willing. Doesn't mean we can't call him out on that. In the meantime, I will try to ignore him (which becomes difficult as he's being pushed down everyone's throat) and I will also use my free will to both dislike him and voice my opinion about him. 馃檭
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